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THE ROOM MATE

    • 166 posts
    December 7, 2022 11:46 AM EST

    THIS POST WILL TAKE A WHILE. THIS IS MY RENDITION OF ALLOWING JESUS TO CLEAN UP THE TEMPLE. REMEMBERING ONCE WE BECOME SAVED JESUS THROUGH THE HOLY SPIRIT MOVE. INTO OUR HEART. THE QUESTION IS DO I LEAVE HIM THERE. MAKING HIM LORD OF MY HEART. YET NOT LORD OF MY LIFE (HIS TEMPLE). WHAT I WILL DO WITH THIS IS LITERALLY WRITE A SHORT STORY ON EVERY ROOM I INVITE/ALLOW JESUS TO ENTER. EVENTUALLY ASKING HIM TO MAKE EACH ROOM HIS ROOM ALSO. JUST LIKE A ROOMMATE. SO PLACES WILL BE EAZY OTHERS NOT SO MUCH. OTHERS PRETTY NEAR IMPOSSIBLE. THERE WILL BE DIELECTRIC BETWEEN JESUS AND I AS WE WORK THROUGH THE TEMPLE JUST LIKE THE PHYSICAL TEMPLE TWICE JESUS CLEANED IT OUT. SO MUST HE CLEAN OUR TEMLES. IT WILL BE A FEW DAYS BEFORE I START THIS NARRATIVE. I INVITE YOU TO BE A THIRD PARTY TO MY EXPERIENCE WITH JESUS MOVING IN. SURRENDER IS A KEY FACTOR IN THIS STORY. YOU WILL FIND THIS IS WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH MAYBE LESS DIFFICULT/PAINFUL THEN ME. HOPEFULLY LESS DIFFICULT N LESS PAINFUL. OTHERWISE YOU MAY FIND YOU TO HAVE SONE HOUSE CLEANING TO ALLOW JESUS TO DO. 

    I WANT TO THANK YOU ALL THAT WILL JOIN ME ON THE PROVERBIAL SPRING CLEANING. GODS SPEED. MAY MERCY FAVOR N GRACE SATURATED WITH GODS LOVE ME UPON YOU THE REST OF YOUR DAYS BLESSINGS ONE LOVE PD 

    • 166 posts
    December 10, 2022 11:08 AM EST

                                                              ROOM MATE 

    EPHESIANS 3:16-17

    GIVES US THE STARTING POINT. IT SPEAKS OF CHRIST LIVING IN OUR HEART. THAT STARTS THE DAY OF OUR SALVATION. MUCH LIKE THE THIEF ON THE CROSS MADE JESUS LORD OF HIS HEART. HOWEVER NOT OF HIS LIFE. HE WANTED TO ESCAPE HELL AND GO TO HEAVEN. HE WAS NOT LOOKING FOR A LONG TERM EARTHLY RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST. THEY BOTH WOULD BE CEAD IN A FEW HOURS. THAT BEING SAID FOR THOSE OF US WHO ARE NOT ON DEATHS DOOR WHEN WE RECEIVE CHRIST AS SAVIOR HE MOVES INTO OUR HEART. AT THAT TIME OUR BODY BECOMES HIS TEMPLE. MY QUESTION METAPHORICALLY SPEAKING. JESUS CAN MOVE IN AND CLEANSES THE TAMPEL  THAT SOUNDS UNCOMFORTABLE TO SAY THE LEAST. THEN AGAIN I COULD HAVE HIM BECOME MY ROOMMATE. 

    NOW WHEN I BEGAN THIS PROCESS I HAD MY THOUGHTS OF WHAT I WANTED IN A ROOMMATE. I WAS PERHAPS NAIVE INNOCENT MORE LIKELY A BIT IGNORANT. I WAS THINKING I WOULD HAVE A BUDDY TO HANG OUT WITH. WE WOULD BECOME BEST FRIENDS OF COURSE THERE WOULD BE A LOT OF Q&A THE OTHER THING AT MY CONVERSION I HAD GREAT JOY AND HAPPINESS. I FIGURED HAVING JESUS AROUND WOULD GUARANTEE I WOULD HAVE THAT 24/7. 
    HERES THE THING I DIDN'T ASK JESUS WHAT HIS THOUGHTS WERE. TRUST ME HIS END RESULT WAS PRETTY MUCH THE SAME. YET I ANTICIPATED IT STARTING FROM THE JUMP. JESUS WAS THINKING LONG TERM. (REMEMBER THE VESRE THAT SAYS HE WILL COMPLETE THE WORK IN US HE BEGAN) THE MOMENT OF MY CONVERSION. I WOULD BE GOING THROUGH A TRANSFORMATION ACTUALLY ITS CALLED MAKING/ALLOWING JESUS TO BE LORD OF OUR LIVES AND NOT JUST OF MY HEART. YES I/YOU/BELIEVERS IF WE WANT THE PUREST RELATIONSHIP WITH THE LORD, IF YOU WANT TO BE A KINGDOM BUILDER JESUS WILL NEED TO BE LORD OF OUR LIVES. 

    JESUS THOUGHTS I WOULD COME TO KNOW WERE 1)MEETING MY NEEDS NOT JUST MY DESIRES 2) HIS PURPOSE WAS TO NOW SANCTIFY ME NOT JUST LEAVE ME IN THE JUSTIFIED STATE OF OUR RELATIONSHIP. 3) HE WAS INTO IT FOR THE LONG TERM THIS WOULD BE A PROCESS. HERE I AM THINKING INSTANT GRATIFICATION. 

    WHEN I RETURN THE FIRST PLACE I WILL INVITE JESUS INTO WILL BE THE PROVERBIAL STUDY/OFFICE. LETS CALL IT THE STUDY/EVALUATION OF MY MIND. THIS IS MY MOST IMPORTANT ROOM. ITS MY NERVE CENTER MY CONTROL ROOM MY OFFICE ALL MY ELECTRONICS ARE HERE. PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING ME RUNS OR HAS RUN THROUGH THERE. ITS NOT THAT BIG ITS SOUND PROOF AND IN MY CASE A BIT THICK. 

    THANK YOU TO THE FEW WHO DROPPED IN. I PROMISE THIS WILL GET BETTER OVER NEXT FEW POSTS. ITS LIKELY GOING TO TAKE A FEW WEEKS SO ENJOY THE RIDE WITH ME. UNTIL THEN. GOD SPEED BLESSINGS ONE LOVE PD

    • 166 posts
    December 12, 2022 7:03 PM EST

                                                                ROOM MATE

                                                                 THE OFFICE

     

    i’D WORKED HARD COLLECTING ALL MY THOUGHTS ALL MY ENCOUNTERS MY MUSIC BOOKS DESK. YES INDEED IT WAS SMALL AND QUAINT YET HAD A SENCE IF CHARM ABOUT IT. IT WAS WHERE I WAS MOST CONFIDENT. NOT NECESSARILY THE MOST COMFORTABLE ROOM. YET THE OFFICE HAD ITS PERKS. THIS IS WHERE I FIGURED JESUS AND I WOULD HAVE SOME DEEP THEOLOGICAL TALKS. HECK I JUST MAY IMPRESS HIM WITH WHAT I KNOW. SO I INVITE JESUS INTO MY OFFICE. 

    HE WALKS IN S,OWLY AND QUICKLY SURVEYS THE OFFCE. I FIGURED I COULD IMPRESS JESUS WITH SOME OF THE CHRISTIAN MUSIC I HAD. SO AS I WENT N PUT THE CD IN ITURED TO SEE JESUS LOOKING AT MY BOOK SHELVES I STOOD SILENTLY AS HE WASN'T LOOKING AT MY FEW CHRISTIAN BOOKS N COMMENTARIES. EVEN A FEW DIFFERENT BIBLES. HE SCRUTINIZED SEVERAL BOOKS I FORGOT I STILL HAD. WITHOUT A WORD HE TURNED TO THE WALLS AND ALL PICTURES AND SIME REALLY GOOD ABSTRACT PAINTINGS. HE LOOKS AT EVERYTHING.HE TURNS STILL NOT SAYING ANYTHING HE WALKS OVER TO MY COFFEE TABLE BUT DOESN'T SIT. HE JUST LOOKS AT MY TABLE. I HADE MOSTLY SPORTS BOOKS SPORTS ILLUSTRATED AND LIKE POPULAR MECHANICS ALONG WITH SOME COMPUTER MAGAZINES. HE PICKED UP MY SPORTS ILLUSTRATED MAGAZINE (NOW I STARTED FEELING A LITTLE NERVOUS) THEN HE REACHED DOWN AND PICKED UP THE SWIM SUIT ADDITION. NOW I WENT FROM NERVOUS TO VERY UNEASY. HE LOOED AT ME AS HE PUT THE S.I. SWIM SUIT DOWN. I KNEW HE WAS NOT OVERLY IMPRESSED WITH MY OFFICE S FAR. HONESTLY BOUT THEN I KINDA WISHED I HAD STARTED WITH ANOTHER ROOM. AS HE TURNS TO WALK  AWAY HE SPOTTED MY ASHTRAY. YA I DIDN’T WANT HIM TO SEE THAT. I COUDN’T BELIVE I FORGOT IT WAS THERE. I HAS A PARTY A FEW DAYS EARLIER AND WELL…. THEN HE CAME OVER TO MY DESK. HE SAT DOWN AND BEFORE I TRIED TO EXPLAIN A FEW THINGS,HE SAID DARYL LET ME SEE YOUR LAPTOP AND YOUR OFFICE COMPUTER. I WITH GREAT TREPIDATION SAID SURE. HE DIDNT NEED ANY PASS WORDS OR USER NAME. HE HAD IT OPENED FASTER THEN I COILD BLIMK. BEFORE I COULD BLINK HE HAD NOT JUST SEEN EVERYTHING NOT JUST ON THE HOME COMPUTER HE ALSO SAW EVERYTHING ON MY LAP TOP BUT ALSO MY IPAD. LASTLY HE ASKED TO SEE MY PHONE. WHAT KIND OF TROUBLE WOULD THAT CAUSE. THEN HE WENT DIRECTLY TO MY 5000 PLUS PICTURE LIBARY. YES IT WAS JUST A FEE SECONDS. BUT NOW IM FEELING SICK. I MEAN IM SITTING WITH GOD THE SON OF GOD MY SAVIOR (IT WOULD SEEM ID NOT YET MADE HIM LORD OF MY LIFE)   WHEN HE WAS.DONE HE SIMPLY LOOKED AT ME AND ASKED ONE THING WHY. I HAD NO ANSWER. THERE WAS NO SINCE IN THAT. MY HEART ANGUISHED AS I SAW THE TEARS IN HIS EYES I KNEW I HAD TO REPENT AND ASK FOR HIS HELP. 

    SO I BROKE DOWN AND REPENTED FOR EVERYTHING HE SAW. I THEN ASKED IF WE WOULD STILL BE ABLE TO STAY ROOM MATES. HE SAID YES BUT IT WILL COST. I ASKED ARE YOU WILLING TO HELP CLEAN EVERYTHING UP. YES HE REPLIED! THEN I TOLD HIM I CAN NOT DO THIS ON MY OWN. WILL YOU MAKE THE CHANGES. I SHOULD HAVE ASKED HIM TO HELP ME NOT PUT ME. PUT ME WILL ALMOST WILL BE PAINFUL.  GUIDING AND MOLDING IS FAR LESS STRESSFUL FOR YOUR MOVING AT A MUCH LESS SPEED AND ARE/TAKING THINGS IN AT THE SPEED GOD SETS YOU UP ON  

    JESUS GOT UP AND SAID NO TIME LIKE NOW TO CLEAN THIS MESS UP  HE WENT TO THE SHEVES AND PRETTY MUCH TOOK ALL THE BOOKS NOT SUITABLE FOR GODS EYES  AND REPLACED THEM WITH HEW STUDY BIBLES AND ALSO SOME GREAT COMMENTARY BOOKS ALSO HE TOLD ME THE OTHER THINGS HE FOUND WERE THINGS THAT WOULD NOT BE CONDUCIVE TO HEALTHY INTAKE  I KNEW HE WAS RIGHT  GOOD THINGS IN BAD THINGS OUT  BUT YOU HAVE TO LET GO  {SURRENDER} HE TOOK  ALL THE PICTURES OFF THE WALL HE EXPLAINED THESE WERE THE MEMORIES OF A NON PRODUCTIVE YEARS OF SELFISHNESS  HE WENT TO THE COFFEE TABLE AND THREW THE ASH TRAY OUT. THEN HE ASKED DO  YOU STILL THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF SMOKING MATERIALS AROUND  I HAS HOOPING THAT QUESTION WOULD NOT BE ASKED  SHEEPISHLY I SAID YES  HE STERNLY LOOKED AT ME AND SAID REPENT MEANS EVERYTHING AND YET YOU STARTED OUR NRW RELATIONSHIP WITH A LIE.I WS DEVASTATED BUT QUIKLY GAVE HIM EVERYTHING. THAT WAS VERY EXPENSIVE AS I WASNT A CASUAL USER I WAS A DEALER. HE DID SAY IT WOULD COST. 

    AS HE WENT TO THE WALL HE SAID THIS WILL TAKE TIME TO REPLACE MY NOW EMPTY WALLS. I WOULD HAVE TO STAY FOCUSED ON ALL THINGS GOD  ID HAVE TO STRIVE TO BE IN THE CENTER OF GODS WILL. HE SAID AS I PUT GODLY SPIRITUAL THINGS IN EVENTUALLY JUST LIKE THE COMPUTER THAT HAD ITS MEMORY ERASED  IT WAS NOW A CLEAN SLATE  JESUS SAID I WILL REPLACE THEM WITH PICTURES OF ME AND ALL MY CREATION  THAT WAY ID BE SURROUNDED BY HIM  ONCE HE HAD TORE EVERYTHING DOWN HE HAD PUT THE ROOM IN ORDER  HE THEN SAT DOWN AND REPLIED TO ME HE WOULD GO FOR A SHOURT WALK AND WEN HE RETURNED ID HAVE TO CONFIRM I STILL WANT A ROOM MATE  WHEN HE WAS GONE I PRAYED FOR STRENGTH TO MOVE FORWARD  WEN HE RETURNED I TOLD HIM BEFORE HE ASKRD THAT WE WOULD BE BREAT ROOM MATES HE SAT DOWN AND WE JUST TALKED  FOR AWHILE  HE COULD SEE THAT I WAS WORE OUT  SO JESUS SAID ILL STAY HERE IN YOUR OFFICE AND MEET YOU HERE AND THEN WE WILL TALK OF ANOTHER ROOM  HE TOLD ME UNTIL ALL THE ROOMS ARE PURGED AND ARE FIT FOR HIM TO STAY HE THEN  COULD  MOVE IN  AND STAY   

    THIS COMPLETES THE TRAVEL TO THE CENTER OF MY MIND/ OFFICE   IDK EXACTLY WHEN I WILL BE BACK BUT WHEN I DO WE WILL GO TO THE LIVING ROOM. I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THE FIRST EDITION OF THE SPIRITUAL JOURNEY/ ROAD SIGNS. THANK YOU ALL FOR DROPPING IN. PLEASE DO COME BACK AND BRING A FRIEND. PLESE FEEL FREE TO LEAVE A COMMET IF YOU DESIRE. 

                                                    BLESSING ONE LOVE PD 

    BLESSING N FARVOR SEASONED WITH GRACE IS MY PRAYER FOR YOU. BLESSINGS. ONE LOVE PD

    • 166 posts
    December 14, 2022 11:13 PM EST

                                                              THE ROOMMATE 

     

                                                             THE DINING ROOM

     THIS ROOM IS THE ROOM OF APPETITES DESIRES INDULGENCE THE DINING ROOM IS MY FAVORITE PLACE FOR THE MOST PART. IT IS ONE OF MY BIGGEST ROOMS. THE FINEST THINGS I WANTED WERE THERE. NICE DINING ROOM TABLE A 60 INCH FLAT SCREEN SURROUND SOUND SYSTEM I HAS A SWEET SOUND SYSTEM. ALMOST AS GOOD AS THE ONE IN MY OFFICE. I HAD PREPARED THE BEST MEAL I COULD AND HAD THE EVENING PLANNED OUT TO THE SMALLEST DETAIL. I WAS NOT GOONS REPEAT THE WHOLE OFFICE THING. 

    I ASK JESUS ARE YOU HUNGRY? HE SAID YES  I ASKED HIM TO CONE INTO THE DINING ROOM AND SIT DOWN AND DINNER WOULD BE SERVED SOON. HE THAT ASKED WHAT WAS ON THE MENU?  ALL MY FAVORITES PRIDE SELF IMPORTANCE MONEY ARE MY MAIN COURSES BUT I HAVE SOME OTHER THINGS TO GO WITH THAT. YOU KNOW SIDE DISHES. ACCOMPLISHMENTS TV INTERVIEW MAGAZINE AND NEW PAPER INTERVIEWS AND WRITE UPS  LOT OF AWARDS JUST TO MENTION A FEW. I MEAN THEY ARE IMPORTANT TO ME ITS NOT LIKE THESE ARE BAD THINGS USED CORRECTLY AT LEAST THAT WAS MY THOUGHTS. HOWEVER THIS TAKES PLACE IN MY MIND AND ACTIONS TEND TO BECOME A DRIVING FORSE UNTIL PERHAPS IT BECOMES IDOLS. WHEN I PUT THEM ON HIS PLATE AND SET IT IN FRINT OF HIM HE POLITELY REFUSED I WAS A BIT TAKEN BACK SO I INQUIRED. WHAT THE PROBLEM WAS? 

    JESUS SAID MY FOOD IS QUITE DIFFERENT WITHOUT HESITATION HE BEGAN TO TELL ME WHAT HE LIKED.  FIRST I EAT THE WILL OF MY FATHER. I GLORIFY MY FATHER BY SUBMITTING TO THE FATHERS DIRECTION I HUNGER FOR RIGHTEOUSNESS I DRINK FAITH THE BIBLE IS WHERE MY FOOD COMES FROM. I EAT SEVERAL TIMES OF DAY IT SANCTIFIES ME. 

    HE THEN EXPLAINED TO ME BY FOOD LEAVES ME HUNGRY. NEVER SATISFYING AND CERTAINLY DOES NOT SANCTIFIES YOU YOUR TASTES ONLY GROW NORE DECADENT. IT LAKS REAL SUBSTANCE. IT WON’T BE REMEMBERED AFTER YOUR GONE. 

    I BEGAN TO SEE JESUS WAS MUCH DIFFERENT THEN I THOUGT. I READ HE CALLED SOME PEOPLE FRIENDS. MY IDEA OF FRIENDS SEEM LIGHT YEARS APART. THEN I ASKED KIND OF FOOD DO YOU SERVE. GLAD YOU ASKED. I FEED MY FLOCK DEVINE COMPASSION FOR DESERT HUMBLE PIE MY OTHER FAVORITE CAKE OF PEACE. THEN I END MY SERVINGS WITH UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. HE ASKED DO YOU WANT TO TRY MY FOOD? YES I REPLIED. WELL FIRST YOUR GOING TO HAVE TO GIVE UP YOUR FOOD. I KNEW HE MEANT I WOULD HAVE TO BE MORE LIKE HIM. THEN TRUST HE WILL DO THE REST. THIS WAS GOING TO HARD FOR THIS WAS ME. AS IF HE COULD READ MY THOUGHTS HE SAID BUT THATS NOT WHO YOU ARE THATS NOT WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE FROM MY PERSPECTIVE. BUT WHATS NOST IMPORTANT IS WHAT DO OTHERS THINK OF YOU. ARE THEY JUST LIKE YOU? IF SO THEN YOUR NOT DOING ANYTHING TO TRLL THEM OF ME. I WANTED HIM TO BE MAD AT ME. YET HE JUST LOOKED AT ME AND SAID YOUR EITHER FOR ME OR AGAINST ME. SO CHOOSE WISELY WHERE DO YOU STAND? I JUST LOOKED AT HIM AND ASKED HIM TO ALLOW ME TO REPENT AND FOLLOW YOU? OF COURSE WHAT KIND OF A ROOM MATE WOULD I BE IF I SAID NO? I SURRENDER THE DINING ROOM TO HIM. AFTERWARDS I FELT LIKE A YOKE WAS TAKEN OFF ME  WE SPENT THE REST OF THE NIGHT COMMUNING. TOMORROW WOULD BE FRIDAY OUR FIRST WEEKEND TOGETHER. I WASN’T SURE WHAT TO EXPECT BUT I FIGURED IT WOULD BE DIFFERENT THAN I IMAGINED. 

    THIS CONCLUDES THE TEACHING ON MY DINING ROOM. EVERYTHING IM TELLING YOU I HAD TO GO THROUGH AS I HAD STRAYED SERIOUSLY WAY OF COURSE AND WAS GOING TO HAVE TO LEARN EVERYTHING I THOUGHT I KNEW. IT TOOK 35 YEARS TO GET ME WHERE I COULD BE PRODUCTIVE IN KINGDOM BUILDING. IT IS HIS TEMPLE IT IS HIS HOME I ACTUALLY SHOULD CONSIDER MYSELF AS THE ROOM MATE/VISITOR. 

    UNTIL I RETURN MAY TGE LORD BLESS YOUR EVERY ENDEAVOR. THAKE YOU FOR THE FEW OF YOU THAT FOUND YOURSELF ON THIS PAGE. GODS SPEED. BLESSINGS ONE LOVE PD 

    • 166 posts
    December 18, 2022 10:37 AM EST

                                                              THE ROOMMATE 

     

                                                             THE LIVING ROOM 

     

    AS WE STOOD IN THE HALL WAY JESUS ASKED DO YOU HAVE A LIVING ROOM? (STUDY) SURPRISED I ANSWERED YES. CAN I SEE IT ASKED JESUS? A LITTLE NERVOUS AS EACH ROOM PREVIOUSLY DID NOT WORK WELL, BUT THE REALITY IS IF JESUS WAS GOING TO BE MY ROOMMATE HE WOULD EVENTUALLY SEE IT ANYWAY. YES IT IS JUST DOWN THE HALL. 

    AS WE WALKED IN HE LOOKED AROUND. THE ROOM IS QUIET WITH MY DESK COFFEE TABLE CHAIRS. I FELT IT HAD A GOOD ATMOSPHERE. THIS ROOM TOO HAS A SMALL FIREPLACE WITH TWO NICE LONGE CHAIRS N A COUCH AROUND THE FIREPLACE. AFTER JUST A FEW MINUTES HE TURNED TO SPEAK TO ME. IDK WHAT IS COMING. SURPRISINGLY HE SAID THIS IS VERY COMFORTABLE, I LIKE IT THIS WILL DO FINE. I INQUIRED WILL DO FOR WHAT?  

    JESUS SAID LETS MAKE THIS OUR DAILY MEETING PLACE, WE CAN START OUR DAY OUT TOGETHER WITH PRAYER MAYBE STUDY YOU KNOW WE CAN COMMUNE. I EAGERLY SAID ABSOLUTELY. SO WHEN DO YOU WANT TO START MEETING? TOMORROW MORNING.  THE NEXT MORNING I WAS EXCITED I WAS GOING TO HANG OUT WITH JESUS. I MEAN THINK OF IT I CAN BE TAUGHT BY THE TEACHER THE MASTER. WE HAD BEEN BUILDING A NICE RELATIONSHIP. WE BOTH ENJOYED OUR TIME. 

    THEN IT HAPPENED. LIFE. WORK WITH WORK RESPONSIBILITIES DEAD LINES ACTIVITIES PROMOTIONS OF MY BUSINESS AND PROMOTIONS FOR ME WITH IN THE COMPANY. THERE WAS A LOT OF PRESSURE. WHICH REQUIRED MORE TIME. IT WAS SUBTLE BUT I WENT FROM RISING EARLY SPENDING A FEW HOURS DAILY, TO MEETING FOR AN HOUR. BUT I WAS NOT AS FOCUSED AS I SHOULD HAVE BEEN. I SEEMED TO KINDA RUSH THROUGH OUR TIME TOGETHER. IT WASN’T TO LONG AND I WAS JUST SPENDING A FEW MINUTES A DAY,TILL I MISSED A DAY. BEFORE I KNEW IT I WAS MISSING MORE DAYS THEN I MEANT. A FEW MORE WEEKS AND I STARTED MISSING EVERY DAY. I WOULD GET UP LATE (ON PURPOSE) SO I HAD TO RUCH OUT THE  DOOR.  IDK I GUESS SIX MONTHS HAD GONE BY AND I TOTALLY FORGOT MY PROMISE TO MEET WITH JESUS,WHEN ONE MORNING I HAD TO GET UP REAL EARLY. I WAS TRYING RUSH OUT THE DOOR WHEN I SAW THE LIGHT ON IN THE LIVING ROOM. INSTANTLY I BECAME NERVOUS. WHAT TO DO. THERE WAS ONLY ONE ANSWER. I SLOWLY OPENED THE DOOR ONLY TO SEE JESUS SITTING ON THE COUCH WITH HIS BACK TO ME. I SHEEPISHLY SAID GOOD MORING. HE TURNED AND WITH TEARS OF SADNESS N SORROW HE SAID GOOD MORING. I ASKED IF HE WAS ALRIGHT. NO HE REPLIED. I ASKED HIM WHAT THE PROBLEM WAS ( LIKE I DIDN’T KNOW). JESUS SAID IVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO RETURN. I ASKED HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN. HE SAID 6 MONTHS 24 DAYS 14 HOURS. 

    A RUSH OF EMOTIONS HIT ME. I WAS CRUSHED. I FEEL TO MY KNEES AND ASKED HIM TO FORGIVE ME. HE SAID I DID 2000 YEARS AGO. WHAT DO I NEED TO DO TO REPAIR THIS? REPENT!! I DID AND ASKED IF WE COULD START OVER. HE WITH A BIG SMILE SAID YES. THEN HE REACHED DOWN AND PICKED ME UP AND WITH THE WARMEST EMBRACE WHISPERED I LOVE YOU. WELCOME BACK. I NEVER MISSED A DAY. YET I STILL HAD NOT TOTALLY LET JESUS KNOW EVERYTHING I WAS DOING. I FIGURED WHY BOTHER HIM WITH THINGS I CAN KEEP SECRET. ONLY TIME WOULD TELL IF I COULD BALANCE BOTH WORLDS. 

    WELL THIS CONCLUDES MY STORY OF THE LIVING ROOM. THE NEXT TIME I RETURN I WILL TALK ABOUT MY WORKSHOP. UNTIL THEN BLESSINGS GODS SPEED. THANK YOU FOR DROPPING IN. PLEASE COME BACK AND BRING A FRIEND. TAKE CARE. ONE LOVE PD

    • 166 posts
    December 21, 2022 8:54 AM EST

                                                                ROOMMATE 

     

                                                                WORKSHOP 

     

    ONE SATURDAY MORNING JESUS ASKED TO YOU HAVE A WORKSHOP?  I DID BUT I KNEW THIS WOULD BE SOMEWHAT DIFFICULT IN MY MIND. SEE THE WORKSHOP HAS TO DO WITH KINGDOM BUILDING. THIS IS ACCOMPLISHED BY USING YOUR SPIRITUAL GIFTS TO BE PRODUCTIVE. I KNEW I STARTED OUT EXCITED BUT EASILY GOT DISTRACTED. THEREFORE I DID NOT SPEND MUCH TIME HONING MY SPIRITUAL GIFTS. JESUS ASKED AGAIN. I SAID YES BUT ITS IN THE GARAGE NO WHERE INSIDE THE HOUSE. JESUS WAS LORD OF MY HEART(SALVATION) HOWEVER I NEVER TOTALLY COMMITTED TO HIS SERVICE. I NEVER TOOK TIME TO ALLOW JESUS TO BE LORD OF MY LIFE YET. THATS WHY MY WORKSHOP WAS NOT INSIDE. WE WALKED INTO THE GARAGE WE BOTH SCOOPED THE AREA. WE BOTH SAW THE SAME THING. SEVERAL PROJECTS/MINISTRIES I STARTED BUT BECAUSE OF MY SELFISHNESS AND BEING SELF CENTERED THEY WERE LEFT AND SADLY LONG FORGOTTEN. THEN JESUS TURNED AND ASKED. IS THIS ALL YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED FOR THE KINGDOM?  I COULD BARLY LOOK UP AT HIM. I WAS SO EMBARRASSED AS I SAID YES LORD THIS IS IT. 

    JESUS ASKED DO YOU WANT TO BE BETTER, DO YOU WANT TO BE PRODUCTIVE IN THE KINGDOM? YES BUT IDK HOW I REPLIED. FIRST YOU NEED TO FOCUS ON HEAVENLY THINGS NOT FADING EARTHLY TREASURES/PLEASURES/FUN/THINGS THAT WERE EASY AND BROUGHT ATTENTION TO ME. OK. THEN HE SAID YOUR TOOLS/SPIRITUAL GIFTS NEED TO BE USED BY (FAITH). I HAVE NOT GOT MUCH OF THAT. JESUS SAID TO COME OVER CLOSER TO THE TABLE. HE THEN SAID I CAN MAKE YOU A CRAFTSMAN, IF YOU WOULD LIKE THAT. OF COURSE. WHAT DO I NEED TO DO? JESUS TOOK MY GIFT/SPIRITUAL TOOL AND THEN PLACED IT IN MY HAND. HE THEN SAID I WILL GUIDE YOU ( HELP YOU TO USE THIS GIFT THROUGH THE EMPOWERMENT OF THE HOLY SPIRIT). AFTER A FEW MINUETS I BEGAN TO ALLOW JESUS TOTAL AUTHORITY OVER MY GIFT/SERVICE. IT WAS NOT LONG BUT BUY EARLY AFTERNOON I HAD BEGAN TO INVASION WHAT I WAS DOING. JESUS NOW STANDING BRSIDE ME BUT NO LONGER HAD TO GUIDE MY HANDS/OBEDIENCE FOR I HAD MOVED TO MOVING WITH PURPOSE. I NOW HAD A VISION JESUS REMARKED WITHOUT THAT VISION ALL PARRISH. HOWEVER ONE MUST BE ABLE TO ADAPT TO SOMETHING DIFFERENT WHEN WE SEE JESUS MOVING ON TO SOMETHING THAT NEEDED TO BE DELT WITH NOW/IN SEASON. MUCH LIKE THE WOMAN WITH ISSUE OF BLOOD WAS NOT IN THE PLAN. YET JESUS STOPPED WHAT HE WAS DOING AT THAT MOMENT TO HEAL HER BEFORE HE MOVED BACK TO THE ORIGINAL GOAL. AFTER A FRW DAYS OF WORKSHOP AND OUR STUDIES I BEGAN TO FEEL COMFORTABLE IN THE LORD. HE REMINDED ME AS LONG AS WE STAY CONNECTED AND YOU RESPOND IN FAITH YOU WILL EXCEL IN KINGDOM BUILDING BUT GO BACK TO MY OLD WAYS AND I WOULD MISS WHAT HE PREPARED EACH DAY [DEVINE APPOINTMENTS]. BY THE END OF A FEW WEEKS I SURRENDERED TO JESUS WILL WHICH BECAME MY PURPOSE. I BEGAN TO THINK THIS ROOMMATE THING MAY BE WAY BETTER THEN I IMAGINED. HOWEVER I WOULD FIND OUT ID NOT MADE JESUS LORD OVER ALL YET. 

    THERE WILL BE MANY MORE ROOMS IN MY HOME. JESUS TEMPLE I WOULD BE CONFRONTED WITH AND EACH TIME I WOULD HAVE TO CHOOSE. LOOSE ME AND GAIN JESUS KEEP ME AND LOOSE MY RELATIONSHIP I HAVE AT THAT MOMENT. 

    THANK YOU FOR COMING BACK TO READ MY THOUGHTS. I DO HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING THE METAPHORS I TRY TO USE TO MAKE MY POINTS. GODS SPEED BLESSINGS ONE LOVE PD. UNTIL NEXT TIME BE SAFE AND STAY CONNECTED. BLESSINGS ONE LOVE PD 

    • 166 posts
    December 26, 2022 8:27 AM EST

                                                                 ROOMMATE 

     

                                                        THE REC ROOM PART#1 

     

    ONE AFTERNOON HE INQUIRED IF I HAD A REC ROOM.  IT WAS A TEST OF COURSE. HE KNEW I HAD ONE JUST MAYBE NOT EXACTLY WHERE. HE WANTED TO SEE IF I WOULD BE FORTHCOMING. I HAD HOPED HE WOULD NOT ASK ABOUT IT. SEE THERES SO MUCH I DIDN’T PARTICULARLY WANT HIM TO KNOW. ACTUALLY I WAS HOPING TO KEEP IT PRIVATE. IT WAS CONNECTED TO THE CELLAR IT HAD A BACK DOOR DOWN THERE. EASY FOR ME TO HAVE EXCESS TO ALONG WITH MY BUDDIES. I MEAN I DID NOT USE IT MUCH BUT WHEN I DID IM SURE JESUS WOULD NOT APPROVE OF THE ACTIVITIES (THINGS DONE THINGS SAID FRIENDS HE LIKELY WOULDN’T WANT ME TO HANG OUT WITH. 

    I HAD TO THINK FAST IF I HOPED TO KEEP THE REC ROOM ON THE DOWN LO. I MEAN I WAS FEELING PRETTY CRUSTY EMBARRASSED EVEN GUILTY. SO I TRIED TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT. YOU KNOW JUSTIFY MY BEHAVIOR WITHOUT GIVING AN ACCOUNT. IDK WHAT I WOULD SAY IF HE DID NOT TAKE THE BAIT. 


    SURPRISINGLY HE DID NOT BRING IT BACK UP. I WASN'T SURE WHY. BUT FIGURED OUT EVEN THOUGH HE PAID THE PRICE TO OWN THE TEMPLE/MYSELF. I GUESS ITS BECAUSE HE A GENTLEMAN. HES NOT THE TYPE TO FORCE THEMSELVES UPON YOU. EITHER WAY I WAS RELIEVED. SEE I DID NOT USE THIS PLACE MUCH BUT TONIGHT I HAD A BOYS OUT NIGHT SCHEDULED FOR NEXT WEEK. 

    THE NEXT FRIDAY EVENING INSTEAD OF MEETING JESUS IN THE DINING ROOM I TOLD HIM I HAD SOMETHING TO DO. THAT WAS TRUE BUT WAS IT MORE IMPORTANT TO BLOW OFF OUR FELLOWSHIP TIME?  NO BUT IT DID NOT STOP ME. I FIGURED I COULD TAKE A BREAK FOR ONE NIGHT. MY BOYS WERE COMING OVER IN AN HOUR. I SLIPPED DOWN INTO THE CELLAR AND UNLOCKED THE BACK DOOR. I HAD MY BOYS PARK DOWN THE STREET A BIT AND JUST MEET ME IN THE REC ROOM. I LEFT JESUS IN THE DINING ROOM HE WAS EATING SOME AWESOME SPIRITUAL FOOD. EVEN ANOTHER REASON TO NOT BOTHER JESUS. 

    ONCE I KNEW MY BUDDIES WERE IN THE REC ROOM I AGAIN SLID OUT OF SIGHT N DOWN STAIRS. WE ALL STARTED DOING OUR THING. START PARTYING WE HAD FEW DRINKS ALONG WITH A FEW OTHER GOODIES. THE BAD LANGUAGE CAME OUT EVEN DEMEANING JOKES. I GUESS WE GOT RATHER LOUD. 

    AS I CAME UP STAIRS TO MEET MY FRIENDS DOWN THE STREET. JESUS OBVIOUSLY HEARING US MEANT ME AT THE CELLAR DOOR. I WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT. THEN AGAIN DID I REALLY THINK HE WOULD NOT CATCH ON?  THEN HE ASKED,WHAT I THOUGHT WAS BIZARRE AT FIRST.  HE ASKED IF HE COULD JOIN US. 

    I WILL STOP HERE FOR NOW. WHEN I COME BACK I WILL PICK UP THE DISCUSSION ON THE REC ROOM. ITS A VERY BIG TOPIC AND MAY TAKE TWO MORE ENTRIES. HOWEVER IF POSSIBLE I WILL TRY N PUT IT TOGETHER IN ONE MORE POST. I STILL HAVE FEW MORE HOMES TO GET TO. IN MY IMAGINATION MY HOUSE IS PRETTY BIG. THANK YOU ALL FOR STOPPING BY THE LAST FEW DAYS ESPECIALLY WITH IT BEING THE CHRISTMAS SEASON.

    GODS SPEED BLESSINGS ONE LOVE PD. 

    • 166 posts
    December 30, 2022 3:14 PM EST

                                                                ROOMMATE 

     

                                                       THE REC ROOM PART #2 

     

    THERE WAS NO GOOD ANSWER HERE. SO I TRIED TO EZE THE MIND FIELD I WAS BOUT TO TRY TO NAVIGATE. I COULD NOT LET HIM COME. WE ALREDY GOT A GOOD START ON “THE BOYS NIGHT OUT” THE BOYS WERE ALL FIRED UP TO GO TO THE NEW BAR IN TOWN CUS IT WAS WOMAN DRINK FREE NIGHT. WE ALSO HAD PLENTY OF THINGS OF INTEREST THAT WOULD ALMOST ASSURE US THAT WE WOULD ALL HAVE DATE MY CLOSING TIME. THIS IS A GREST PLACE FOR SINGLE GUYS. OK JESUS IS SINGLE. THEN ITS A VERY CROWED PLACE. THIS WAS MY ANGLE. I TOLD HIM THAT IT WOULD BE VERY CROWED AND HE MAY NOT BE COMFORTABLE WITH SUCH BIG CROWDS. HE SAID I DO WELL IN CROWDS. I THEN SEEING THE CAR PULLING UP FRONT TO PICK ME UP. I BEGAN TO WALK TO THE LANDING. I SAID JESUS ID LOVE TO BRING YOU BUT ITS THERES NO ROOM IN THE CAR. ALSO THIS IS SOMETHING WE PLANNED A MONTH BEFORE YOU BECAME MY HOUSE GUEST AND NOW ROOMMATE. SO I MEAN OK SO LETS PLAN ON GOING OUT SOME OTHER SATURDAY. HE LOOKED AT ME WITH THOSE EYES THAT SAID DOES HE NOT KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I KNOW AND ASKS WHAT IS THIS PLACE YOUR GOING TO? I SAID ITS A CLUB A PLACE WHERE PEOPLE GET TOGETHER AND UNWIND. IDK IF YOU WOULD WANT TO SEE HOW SOME BEHAVE.WHEN WILL YOU BE BACK HE INQUIRED?  UMM ITS LIKE 10:00 NOW. I SHOULD BE BACK ROUND 1;00am  DON’T WAIT UP. I WILL SEE YOU INTHE MORNING IN OUR REGULAR MEETING PLACE AND JUST TURNED MY BACK ON JESUS PHYSICALLY N SPIRITUALLY. 

    THE WHOLE NIGHT WAS TERRIBLE. I MEAN I COULD NOT GET PAST I LEFT JESUS HOME AFTER NOT BEING VERY HONEST. OK THERES NO SUCH THING AS MOSTLY. IT IS TRUTH OR IT IS NOT. SOME OF THE GUYS WERE WAY OVER THE TOP. SEVERAL TIMES THEY WERE ALMOST TOSSED WORSE YET I TRADED QUILTY TIME IN WITH JESUS AND I CHOOSE MY VERY MISGUIDED FRIENDS. WE LEFT AT 3:00am I WALKED ROUND THE BLOCK FOR ANOTHER HOUR AFTER I GOT DROPPED OFF. I PURPOSELY TOOK A LONG TIME TO COME IN. 

    WHEN I FINALLY OPEND THE DOOR MUCH TO MY SURPRISE THERE WAS JESUS RITE WHERE I LEFT HIM. I JUST COULD NOT EVEN LOOK HIM INTHE EYE. HE THEN ASKS DID YOU HAVE A GOOD TIME? I DIDN’T WANT TO ANSWER SO I ASKED HIM WHY ATE YOU UP? HE SAID YOU WERE LATE AND I LIKE THE FATHER IN THE TOWER KNEW HIS BOY WAS COMING THE EXACT HOUR WASNT COMPLETELY LOCKED IN. YET YOUR TIME WAS. WHEN YOU WERE LATE I CAME TO LOOK FOR YOU. I SAID THANKS BUT I AM JUST FINE. I BID HIM GOOD NIGHT 

    ALL NOGHT I TOSSED N TURNED. THERE WAS SO MUCH GOING THROUGH MY MIND. APPARENTLY SPIRITUALLY IT WAS MORE N MORE OF AN ISSUE AS THE MORING WAS ABOUT TO START WITH SUNRISE. I WAS SO EMBARRASSED I JUST THOUGHT MAYBE I WILL STAY IN BED. BESIDES I GOT A BAD STRESS HEADACHE. I REALIZED I COULD NOT HAVE TWO MASTERS. I HAD TO CHOOSE FRIENDS OR JESUS. IF I CHOOSE RITE THEN I GOT NO FRIENDS. THAT WOULD ALSO PLACE ME IN THAT PLACE WHERE I WOULD HAVE TO CHOOSE JESUS OR ME. ME HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY CHOICE. 

    I JUST GET UO AND GO UPSTAIRS. AS I OPEN TGE DOOR I SMELL FRESH COFFEE. SO NEEDING A BOOST I TAKE A CUP N MEET JESUS IN OUR LIVING ROOM. I WAS NOT SURE HE WOULD TALK TO ME IF HE WAS THERE. BUTTHE COFFEE MAY BE SAYING HE MAY HAVE THINGS HE WANTS ME TO PAY CLOSE ATTENTION TO. HE WAS THERE WAITING BY THE FIRE PLACE WHERE WE WOULD ALWAYS MEET. I SAT DOWN I DID NOT SAY A WORD. 

    THEN FOR THE SECOND TIME IN LESS THEN 24 HOURS ASKED ME SOMETHING TOTALLY OFF MY RADAR. LIKELY CUS ITS ALWAYS BEEN OFF IT I JUST DID NOT KNOW ANY BETTER. JESUS ASKS ME MY DEAR FRIEND DARYL DO YOU LOVE ME. IDK IF I REALLY DID SURLY NOT AS MUCH AS I COULD. SO I JUST SAY YES OF COURSE. THEN HE ASKS AGAIN DO YOU LOVE ME. THINKING HE DID NOT HEAR ME I ANSWER YES. HE MOST DEFINITELY HEARD ME. HE WANTED ME TO LISTEN TO HIM. NOW HE ASKS ONE MORE TIME. NOW I REALIZE HE ALREADY KNOWS WHERE I AM AT AND APPARENTLY IDK WHERE IT IS. BUT I DID RECALL THIS SAME CONVERSATION GOING ON WITH PETER. 

    I COULD NOT ANSWER YES SO I JUST LOOK DOWN. EXPECTING HIM TO BE ANGRY. HE INSTEAD WANTED TO REESTABLISH OUR RELATIONSHIP. ALL I COULD DO IS BREAK DOWN AND ASK FOR FORGIVE ME AND HELP ME TO GET OUR RELATIONSHIP BACK. THEN JESUS SAID I FORGAVE ON THE CROSS. BUT YES I CAN AND WILL HELP YOU. BUT YOU WILL HAVE TO BE WILLING TO ALLOW ME TO MOLD YOU INTO SOMETHING ELSE THEN YOU SEE. YOU WILL HAVE TO MAKE CHANGES. I WITH SUCH RELIEF ASKED WHEN DO WE START? HE SAID WE ALREADY HAVE. THE QUESTION ISNT WHEN BUT WHERE. PUZZLED I SAID WHERE DO WE NEED TO GO. HE SAID THE REC ROOM. YOU KNOW THE ONE WITH THE BACK DOOR THAT UNLESS YOH LOOK YOU WOULD NOT FIND IT. 

    WHEN WE CAME IN ALL THE EVIDENCE OF OUR PARTY LAST NIGHT WAS CLEANED UP. I JUST LOOKED AT HIM. OH THAT IT GOT CLEANED UP THE MOMENT YOU THOUGHT YOU NEEDED TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS. FORGIVENESS WASHES AWAY ALL NEGATIVE THINGS. HE CHANGED THE DECORE MY MUSIC COLLECTION WAS SWAPED OUT FOR ALL KINDS OF CHRISTIAN MUSIC. HE BROUGHT ME NEW FRIENDS. WE MEANT EVERY WEEK WITH JESUS. WE TALKED OF THE AWESOME THINGS GOD DID FOR US N THROUGH US. IT WAS A CELEBRATION THE FOOD WAS ALWAYS GOOD OUR BEVERAGES WERE TOTALLY AT THE OTHER END OF THE SPECTRUM. JESUS WAS OUR CENTER THEME. IT WENT FROM A REC ROOM WHERE I WRECKED SO MUCH TO A FELLOWSHIP HALL. THE WEEKS TURNED INTO A DAILY THING AND EVERYDAY MORE NEW PEOPLE CAME. BEFORE I KNEW IT A FEW MONTHS PAST AND EACH WEEK GOT BETTER. THEN ONE NIGHT WHEN WE WALKED EVERYONE OUT WE BOTH WENT WERE GETTING READY TO HIT THE BED. JESUS TURNED AND SAID IN PASSING. YOU DID NOT KNOW THINGS COULD BE SO DIFFERENT. TELL ME DARYL. ARE YOU HAVING FUN NOW? I KNOW MOST OF MY CHILDREN HAVE NOT FIGURED OUT ITS NEVER BORING AND ITS ALWAYS REWARDING. 

    THIS IS THE END OF MY THOUGHTS ON THE REC ROOM. MAYBE YOU HAVE A REC ROOM THAT WOULD BE A NICE FELLOWSHIP HALL. THANK YOU FOR READING MY CRAZY IMAGINATION. GODS SPEED. BLESSINGS ONE LOVE PD  


    This post was edited by Daryl Page at January 12, 2023 6:19 PM EST
    • 166 posts
    January 1, 2023 12:13 PM EST

                                                            THE ROOMMATE 

                                                            THE BED ROOM

     

    ONE MORING I GUESS I WAS RUNNING A LITTLE LATE MEETING JESUS IN THE LIVING ROOM FOR OUR TIME OF FELLOWSHIP. AS I WAS GETTING UP I HEARD JESUS COMING DOWN THE HALLWAY. I QUICKLY STEPPED OUT TO MEET HIM. 

    GOOD MORING MY SON. MORING JESUS. I NOTICED HIM LOOKING BEHIND ME. I TURNED AND REALIZED MY BEDROOM DOOR WAS OPENED. HE DID NOT ASK VERBALLY BUT HIS EYES SPOKE VOLUMES. VERY UNCOMFORTABLY I ASKED WOULD YOU LIKE TO STEP IN?  I SERIOUSLY HOPED HE WOULD PASS OR RAIN CHECK,BUT OF COURSE HE SAID YES. I KNEW MUCH TOOK PLACE IN THIS ROOM. NONE OF IT WOULD JESUS EVER CONDONE AS A MATTER OF FACT HE WOULD BE SADDENED BUT QUITE POSSIBLE VERY UPSET. 

    AS WE WALK IN HE GLANCES AROUND THE ROOM AND NOTICES THE PICTURES ON THE WALL OF MY GIRLFRIEND. THEN HE PICKS UP THE PICTURE OF HER N I AT A LODGE WE STAYED AT FOR A WEEK. NOW IT WAS LONG BEFORE HE MOVED IN TO MY HOUSE. YET IT WAS LONG AFTER I BECAME HIS CHILD. JESUS HAD NEVER SEEN HER PHYSICALLY WITH ME. HOWEVER I DO HAVE A DOOR FROM THE SIDE THAT I WOULD BRING HER OVER. HE ASKS WHAT WAS HER NAME?  I TOLD HIM HER NAME. HE THEN STARTS ASKING MORE AND MORE  AT FIRST IT WAS A BIT NERVE RACKING. I TRIED TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT, HE WAS NOT HAVING ANY OF THAT. HE PUSHED INTO THE SUBJECT MATTERS THAT WERE GOING TO BE EXTREMELY REVELING AND EMBARRASSING. HE ASKS WHAT TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP DO YOU HAVE  IT WAS PREDOMINATELY PHYSICAL NOT ANY TYPE OF SPIRITUAL RELATIONSHIP THOUGH. I TOLD HIM WE WERE REAL GOOD FRIENDS.  HE THEN ASKED IF WE HAD BEEN INTIMATE. THAT WAS A POLITE WAY OF ASKING DO YOU HAVE A SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP? I TAKING A DEEP BREATH AND MY MOUTH WENT DRY BEGRUDGINGLY I SHEEPISHLY SAID YES. HIS DEMEANOR CHANGED A LITTLE. THEN HE ASKS WAS SHE A VIRGIN? I SO FELT SO MUCH SHAME,AS I SAID YES SHE WAS. NOW HE WAS VISIBLY UPSET WITH ME RIGHTLY SO. HE THEN TOLD ME YOU TOOK SOMETHING FROM HER THAT SHE WAS TO GIVE TO HER HUSBAND.ARE YOU MARRIED? OF COURSE HE KNEW THAT ANSWER AND DID NOT LET ME ANSWER, HE MOVED INTO A SUBJECT I HAD NOT TAKEN TIME TO EVEN THINK OF. IS SHE SAVED? I WAS HORRIFIED AS I KNEW WHERE THIS WAS GOING. NO JESUS SHES NOT.  SO YOU TOOK SOMETHING FROM HER THAT WAS PRECIOUS AND THE DID NOT SHARE WITH HER THE MOST PRECIOUS THING KNOWN TO MANKIND SALVATION. I COULD NOT GIVE HIM A ANSWER THAT WOULD SATISFY HIS ENQUIRING.JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I COULD NOT FEEL WORSE, HE SAYS BUT YOU ARE SAVED RIGHT!!! YES JESUS I AM. JESUS REPLIES SO WHAT SHOULD YOU DO? I SAID TELL HER OF YOU,BUT IDK HOW TO REALLY DO THAT.  I THEN ASK JESUS WILL YOU HELP ME TELL HER. YES I WILL GIVE YOU THE WORDS TO SAY.  

    IT WAS ABOUT A WEEEK LATER I SHARED THE GOSPEL WITH HER.I WAS A LITTLE SURPRISED THAT SHE SAID YES,FOR I HAD NEVER TRIED BEFORE. YET I WAS SURPRISED IN A GOOD WAY THAT KNOW SHE WOULD BE GOING TO HEAVEN. I HAD NOT CONSIDERED SHE MAY BE MY WIFE ONE DAY.  HOWEVER IN JUST A FEW DAYS WHILE TALKING I THANKED HIM FOR HIS INTERVENTION. HE THEN TOLD ME YOU STILL HAVE MORE TO DO WITH/FOR HER.  I BEWILDERED ASKED WHAT ELSE?  HE SAID APOLOGIZE TO HER FOR WHAT YOU TOOK FROM HER. HE THEN EXPLAINED A SPIRITUAL REALITY I DID NOT KNOW OF,WELL I DID NOT WANT TO THINK ABOUT. HE TELLS BE I CONNECTED TO HER THROUGH HIS BLOOD SPIRITUALLY BUT PHYSICALLY CONNECTED TO HER BY WHAT YOU TOOK. I WAS PUZZLED AT FIRST BUT FIGURED IT OUT PRETTY FAST. 

    THEN WHAT DO I DO NEXT? HE SAID MAKE SURE YOU FIND A PLACE OF WORSHIP ACTUALLY I WILL DIRECT YOU TO THAT PLACE. ONCE YOU GET ESTABLISHED THEN TAKE MARRIAGE COUNSELING. I AM NOT TELLING YOU TO GET MARRIED NOW,BUT GIVEN THE RIGHT AMOUNT IF TIME EFFORT AND LOVE ONE DAY YOU WILL MARRY HER, IN DOING SO YOU STILL CAN BRING HONOR BACK TO HER. BY DOING SO THEN I WILL BLESS YOU BOTH,NOT AS MUCH AS IF YOU WOULD HAVE DONE THINGS IN ITS ORDER, HOWEVER YOU BOTH ARE MY CHILDREN AND I WILL BLESS YOU BOTH FOR YOUR OBEDIENCE. 

    NOT IN THIS STORY DO WE KNOW THE OUT COME  HOWEVER IF THAT SCENARIO WAS CREATED BY ME AND GIVEN THE CHANCE TO MAKE IT RITE I WOULD, SO LATER IN LIFE WHEN JESUS WOULD COMPLETE THIS VERSION OF ME HE HAS BEGUN I DID MARRY HER. 

    THIS IS THE ENDING OF THIS CHAPTER OF THE ROOMMATE. THERES JUST A FEW MORE THINGS N ROOMS THAT NEED ADDRESSING. SO NEXT TIME I RETURN WE WILL TALK ABOUT THE HALL CLOSET. WE ARE ALMOST DONE WITH THE CLEANSING OF MY HOME.  SO I WANT TO THAK YOU FOR TAKING TIME TO READ THIS IMAGINARY STORY  GODS SPEED BLESSINGS ONE LOVE PD

     

    • 166 posts
    January 12, 2023 2:07 PM EST

                                                                ROOMMATE 

                                                         THE HIDDEN CLOSET

     

    YOU MAY HAVE THOUGHT THE KITCHEN HAS NOT BEEN TALKED ABOUT. THE THING IS THE ONLY COMPLAINT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE BEVERAGES AND CONVERSATIONS. WHICH WERE TAKEN CAR OF FROM THE REC ROOM. 

    IDK I THINK JESUS HAD BEEN WITH ME FOR OVER A YEAR AND HALF. IT WAS SO GOOD I TOOK HIM ON AS NOT A VISITOR WHO POSSIBLY MAY BE MY ROOMMATE. BUT ACTUALLY MADE HIM MY ROOMMATE. ONCE AGAIN I HAS OTHER IDEAS OF HOW IT WOULD GO. HONESTLY I THOUHT WE WERE KICKING IT SO WELL. HE HAD NOT BROUGHT ANYTHING UP NOW IN A FEW MONTHS. JESUS NOW HAS TOTAL AXCESS TO THE WHOLE HOUSE. TO DO WHATEVER HE DESIRES. 

    THIS WAS A FRIDAY AND I WAS IN A HURRY TO CHECK OUT MY ROOMMATE’S DAY WENT. WHEN I GOT THERE JESUS MEANT ME AT THE DOOR AND WAS VISIBLY UPSET. MEETING ME AT THE DOOR WELL THAT ALWAYS MEANT SOMETHING WAS NOT RIGHT IN MY WORLD. AS I COME THROUGH THE DOOR I DID NOT GET A CHANCE TO SAY GOOD EVENING. JESUS SAID WE NEED TO TALK. I AM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT HE WAS UPSET WITH. HE ASKED DID YOU SHOW ME YOIR WHOLE HOUSE? YES JESUS I HAVE. HE THEN SAID FOLLOW ME. SO I DID. WE WALKED THROUGH THE HOUSE TO THE CELLAR. AT FIRST I AM THINKING I MUST HAVE MESSED UP IN THE REC ROOM SOMEHOW. BUT HE WALKED RITE PAST THAT AND HEADED TO A HIDDEN CLOSET JUST THIRTY STEPS GROM THE REC ROOM. 

    I KNOW WHERE HE IS GOING. SEE WHEN JESUS BECAME ROOMMATE HEHAD THE RITE TO ASK ABOUT LOCKED ROOMS. IN THIS CASE MY PRIVATE CLOSET.NOT EVEN MY OLD BUDDIES KNEW ABOUT THIS ROOM. I START TO FEEL HORRIBLY SICK. JESUS WALKS RITE UP TO MY CLOSET. HE ASKED WHAT IS IN THERE. WHILE YOUR AT IT WHY DO YOU HAVE A HIDDEN KEY PAD KEEPING THE CLOSET LOCKED. I KNEW A FEW THINGS COULD HAPPEN. AND NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME NO MATTER WHAT UP I DO. I KNOW INSTINCTIVELY IF HE FOUND THE HIDDEN OAD HE KNEW WHAT WAS IN THE ROOM. HE WAS GOING TO. TEST ME. WOULD I LIE AGAIN WHICH THEN I WOULD HAVE TO LIE BOUT WHAT WAS FOUND. THEN AGAIN I COULD TELL HIM BUT THAT IS GOIMG RO BE THE HARDEST THING I EVER DID. HE THEN SAYS IT HAS A TERRIBLE STENCH COMING FROM INSIDE. I COULD NOT SMELL A THING. 

    I DECIDED I WAS GOING TO TRY AND COME UP WITH A STORY. AS I OPENED MY MOUTH TO SPEAK I LOOKED AT HIS EYES. THEY WERE ALL TEARED UP. WHAT HE WAS SMELLING MY SPIRITUAL ACTIONS AND OTHER THINGS THAT JUST LAID AROUND. SO THERE IT WAS IF I DO NOT TELL HIM WHAT HE ALREADY KNOWS, BUT NEVER BROUGHT IT UP UNTIL WE WERE ROOMMATES. I WAS GOING TO JUST TELL HIM OFF. I TELL HIM EVERYONE HAS THE RIGHT TO PRIVACY. I ASK HIM WHY HE WAS SNOOPING AROUND. BUT HIS EYES WERE TELLING ME A MULTITUDE OF THINGS. THE ONE THING IS ALL THIS TIME ALL THIS EFFORT ALL MY CHANGES. HIS AND MY RELATIONSHIP WILL CHANGE DRASTICALLY. I WAS NOT GOING TO THROW THAT AWAY. I OPENED THE DOOR. I INVITED HIM IN NOT UNTIL YOU TELL ME WHAT IS IN THERE?  I KNEW EVERYTHING HE WORKED OUT THAT I WORKED ON WAS ABOUT TO BLOW UP. I ADMITTED IT WAS A PLACE WHERE MY DEEPEST SECRETS ARE STORED. ALSO ALL THE TIMES I TOLD YOU I WOULD CHANGE IF YOU WOULD FIX MY MESS. BUT I NEVER FOLLOWED  THROUGH I JUST PUT THEM IN HERE. I COULD NOT LET MY OLD FRIENDS I WAS A CHRISTIAN THEY WOULD HAVE CALLED ME A HOLY ROLLER OR WAS I A JESUS FREAK. IT WAS A DARK PLACE. ONCE I TOLD HIM THAT HE CAME IN. BUT HE WAS VISIBLY CRYING. MAN I FELT TERRIBLE. I ASKED HIM WHY THE TEARS? HE SAID I DIED TO BREAK THE BONDAGE OF SUCH EARTHY CARNAL KNOWLEDGE AND THE ACTIONS IN HERE. THE THINGS YOU SAW AND DID. I DIED FOR THE LIE IN THE HALL. 

    JESUS SAID I CAN NOT STAY HERE WITH SUCH THINGS IN THE HOUSE. YOU WILL ALWAY HAVE HEAVEN. HOWEVER OUR RELATIONSHIP WILL BE AS IT WAS BEFORE I CAME HERE. QUITE POSSIBLY WORSE. I NOW COMPLETELY BROKEN ESPECIALLY MY HEART. I ASK JESUS TO HELP AS I CAN DO SOMETHINGS. BUT THE VAST MAJORITY JESUS YOU WILL HAVE TO FIX. WILL YOU HELP ME JESUS?  HE ANSWERS THATS WHY I CAME BACK FROM THE DEAD. SONI COULD HELP YOU. JESUS WENT IN AND BAGGED ALL THE PHYSICAL MATERIALS UP. THE LOST OPPORTUNITIES HE JUST ERASED THEM THROUGH HIS BLOOD. HE CLEANED UP MY MIND AND HE REFILLED ME WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT. 

    WHAT A SWEET RELEASE. I THANKED JESUS FOR THE LOVE HE SHARED N SHOWED ME.HE SMILED AND REACHED OUT TO SHAKE MY HAND WHILE SAYING WE WILL BE GRAET ROOMMATES. I KNEW THAT IS NOT WHAT HE OR I WANTED. HE GAVE ME FREE WILL. HE WONN’T ASK OR SAY. I HAVE TO THINK OBEDIENCE OR FAITH. OBEDIENCE/ROOMMATE. FAITH/EVERYTHING JESUS. I STOPPED HIM AND FELL TO MY KNEES FACE ON THE FLOOR I TOLD HIM HOW SORRY I WAS N HOW UNWORTHY I WAS TO HAVE HIM IN MY PRESENCE. HE GENTLY REACHED DOWN AND LIFTED ME UP AND HUGGED ME AND SAID DO YOU REMEMBER IN THE BIBLE WHERE I SAID I WOULD NEVER LEAVE OR FORSKE YOU. I MEANT IT. I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE. I NEW RITE THEN I WOULD HAVE TO GO FUTHER AND SURRENDER MY LIFE TO HIM. AS I LOOKED INTO HIS FACE ALL THE WEIGHT OF THE UNIVERSE WAS INSTANTLY GONE. I THEN REACHED INTO MY POCKET A TOOK THE KEY OUT FOR THE SAFE WHERE I KEEP THE IMPORTANT PAPER WORK. I UNLOCKED IT AND REACHED IN. I SAID JESUS THIS IS THE DEED TO THE HOUSE AND THIS IS THE TITLE FOR THE HOUSE. I SAID LASTLY. THIS HAS ALWAYS BEEN YOUR CASTLE SINCE YOU SAVED ME. TODAY I AM GIVING YOU MY LIFE THE DEED THE TITLE TO MY HEART AND LIFE. THE HOUSE JUST BECAME YOUR TEMPLE. TODAY YOU BECOME LORD OF BOTH MY HEART N LIFE. 

    *NOTHING WAS EVER THE SAME*.

    THIS CONCLUDES THE ROOMMATE. THIS WAS MY WAY OF MAKING IT BACK TO CHRIST. I JUST TRIED TO USE METAPHOR TO PUT THINGS IN PERSPECTIVE. I SEE THIS WAS NOT AS POPULAR SUBJECT AS I HOPED. I DO THANK MY SPIRITUAL FAMILY THAT MADE UP THE 543 PEOPLE THAT CAME AND SPENT YOUR TIME HERE. 

    GODS SPEED BLESSINGS ONE LOVE PD