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A Cliff hanger



    By God & Leslie


    Matthew 4:1-11


    Jesus Is Tested in the Wilderness


    Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. The tempter came to him and said, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread.” Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’ Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down. For it is written:“ He will command his angels concerning you, And they will lift you up in their hands ,so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.’ Jesus answered him, It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’ Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. “All this I will give you,” he said, “if you will bow down and worship me.” Jesus said to him, “Away from me, Satan! For it is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.’

    Then the devil left him, and angels came and attended him.

    “The reality of your life can not always be shared with others” is what came to me in one of my quieter moments. I wrote a friend the other day, someone whom I have known for over 25 years now. She lives in Maryland, in the state I use to live in and we met when my daughter was struggling with cancer. We had been in Johns Hopkins Hospital and we needed contact from a local church. I found a phone book and made a call. Two woman came to the hospital. Well, one of the woman, Renee, and I hit it off right away, like we knew each other all along. She was older than me, and had a sick child herself. Her son was born with Spina Bifiada. I knew nothing of that illness, still struggling to learn of my daughters, but she and I were both mothers, dealing with sick children,  we both knew the Lord, and we bonded. Renee is one of my prayer warriors even though I have not seen her in 10 years. We still keep in contact via email although it is not a daily thing. Well the other day, after the many times I have poured out to her what was bothering me, she poured out to me and told me what was happening in her life.

    If I could have given her a hug I would have. I sent this heart wrenching plea to another dear friend of mine, whom also is one of my prayer warriors, and requested prayer for Renee. She agreed to pray. Where two or three are gathered……

    Now the funny thing with prayer, you have no idea how it is going to affect the other. And how you pray for someone, is not how they are praying , nor the other people whom you have asked to pray. So here you have several people, who know what is happening in your life, and you have given them some kind of idea on what you need, but what they actually pray, is what ever is on their heart for you. I have reached out to several people in prayer for my self, and sometimes they will send me back a text or an email with a prayer in them. And at that moment it is just what I needed to get through the next five minutes of my day.

    My life here lately has been a cliff hanger, one that people pay money to read in a book or go see in a move. “Oh someone get the popcorn this is good stuff, I wonder what will happen next, and I wonder how she will deal with it this time”.


    But ….

    “The reality of your life can not always be shared with others” .


    Think with me for a moment, Jesus out in the dessert 40 days, 40 nights. Think with me for a moment and picture in your mind what that would actually look like. No water jugs, no food supply, he was fasting. He was God, yet, man. He walked either barefoot or wore sandals over a sandy, dirty terrain. Have you ever walked on the beach? Do you remember how hard it was to walk in the sand with sandals on? Even barefoot, the sand scorching hot? Have you ever walked along the shore line so far you said I think I better turn around and find out that the way back is longer than you thought?

    Well, Jesus was not walking the shore line where at least he could have found some refreshment. He was smack dab in the wilderness. There were many things he had to face out there. Snakes, not just the devil, scorpions, think about laying down on the ground and having one of those cross your path. How about the wild beasts that roam. How about the heat of the day, tired, and hungry. I am sure when he started out, like we all do, we say, is a piece of cake. We might even make it a whole day, but by day two, as we hear our tummies growling and we feel week, we are ready to end this fasting state and get something to eat and to drink.

    There is a lot said in this above scripture. The Spirit Led Jesus into the wilderness. So his feet were put in a certain direction. If you are lead, you are going a certain way. There was a plan, the devil was set up to tempt Jesus during this time. It was not until Jesus finished fasting, that the Devil came to him , while weak, tired, hungry, thirsty, an easy place to get one to change sides. But Jesus, holds his ground, he recalls what he has learned, what he knows, what he has memorized. HE allows the devil to take him to the cliffs edge. At any time, Jesus could have broken free, and Satin knew this, but because this was all in the plan, things went accordingly, and they were written down for us to glean and learn from .

    There are many scriptures that I have memorized, some I quote daily, like Philippians 4:19; But my God will supply; or Philippians 4:6-7 Be Anxious for nothing; or Isaiah 6:8 God will keep him in perfect peace; or 1 Thessalonians 5:18 ‘ Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you’. I know these, I cling to them, I have them written on Q cards, I have them pined to my walls on post it notes, I have them highlighted in my Bible. I go to bed with thanksgiving on my mind and quote the scriptures so I can go to sleep.

    BUT when you are standing on the edge of the Cliff looking down, teetering on the edge, when the world is piling on more than you can handle and you are ready to pop, quoting scripture is not always the first thing on your mind. Breathing is, trying to slow down your rapid heart beats, so too, trying to slow down the shaky feeling you have in side that feels like you have had to much caffeine. When you watch your blood pressure stay on the high side and you know it is because of stress, but are helpless to change the circumstances, quoting scripture does not appear to come in as a handy fix at that moment.

    What if God takes care of it ,is not what you are thinking at the moment. You are in a tail spin, have no clear direction and ……

    “The reality of your life can not always be shared with others” .

    Luke 22 39-46 


    The Prayer in the Garden


    Coming out, He went to the Mount of Olives, as He was accustomed, and His disciples also followed Him.  When He came to the place, He said to them, “Pray that you may not enter into temptation.”

    And He was withdrawn from them about a stone’s throw, and He knelt down and prayed, saying, “Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.” Then an angel appeared to Him from heaven, strengthening Him. And being in agony, He prayed more earnestly. Then His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground. When He rose up from prayer, and had come to His disciples, He found them sleeping from sorrow. Then He said to them, “Why do you sleep? Rise and pray, lest you enter into temptation.”


    Let me ask you this question “ Do you see Anxiousness and Stress in this passage”? I sure do!

    Yet, Jesus prays your will not mine. He is still seeking His Fathers guidance.


    Hebrews 4:15


    For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses,

    but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin.


    You have got to read that scripture again ! 


    These last few months have held me in a vice. Strike after strike, hit after hit, the balls coming at me so fast that I did not have time to hit them with a bat and send them flying. I was just holding on, was just stretched as far as I could be stretched then another hit would come. In its wake, anxiousness, stress, weakness, exhaustion, barely any room to breath all in my little corner of the world. I sought, I prayed, I quoted scripture, I posted them on post it notes, I had them in the subject line of my emails that I would send to work. I would cry out at break time when I was able to step outside, I would cry out to God at lunch time when the sun was shining high in the sky, hoping , waiting, listening for a direction, waiting for an answer. I have sent out prayer request after prayer request, even to those Christian web pages that say, “Can We Pray For You”? I sent requests to my closest friends whom I knew would earnestly pray for me. I cried daily on the way home from work, barely able to get into the house at the end of the day. Falling into bed in exhaustion, crying out to God again for solutions to the issues I was dealing with.

    My life , since I excepted the Lord in December of 1981 has not been the normal walk as some people have. Mine has been a tested and trying journey. One of sheer determination, sheer faith, sheer believe that God will do what He said He would do. I believe Lord; “Please Help My Unbelief”

    Mark 9:23-24


    Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”


    Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tear,


    “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!”


    “The reality of your life can not always be shared with others” . 


    What would you think if I told you I was using Miracle Whip to coat the fry pan so I could cook an egg. I was out of butter, or any oil, just had the Miracle Whip. How about making a package of cookies that was given to me and instead of using oil, yep, used Miracle whip. How about using coffee filters to clean the kitchen, blow your nose, clean the bathroom mirrors, or soak up extra water from a bag of  hard boiled eggs in the refrigerator. Last week, armed with only two coupons for $3.00 off a Oscar Myer meat product, and $2.80 cents my son had and $1.52 in the checkbook we headed to there grocery store. We had an 18 pack of eggs in the Refrigerator. We got two packages of lunch meat, some rice, and something else, but what ever it was I had to use .45 cents from my $1.52 to finish paying for the items. We were on rations to say the least.  How about figuring you have just $46.00 a week for groceries when all the bills are paid. How about car repair bills at a whopping $1,400 when all was said and done. What about four trips to Urgent Care in a matter of a few weeks.( now 4 new bills) . All stress related. And the last trip, that doctor, because none of them were the same doctor, prescribes antidepressant/anxiety combinations, and that when you read the side effects, say right at the top “ May Cause Suicidal Thoughts” and can worsen stress and anxiety issues already present.

    REALLY ??????

    At what lengths would you go to meet the needs of your household. Do you stand, be still, and wait? Or do you plummet through looking for ways, for open doors, for any means necessary to meet the needs of your house hold? Now add the stress of your job, a new computer class that has been paid for by the company, each lesson comes to you on Wednesday and Fridays, and on November 4th you will take the final exam when you are of the older generation where having a computer in your house was unheard of makes learning a little more difficult. How do you balance all that is happening without a total collapse? How close to edge do you have to come before you free fall off the edge and hope GOD will grab you by the belt. How do you maintain your composure around others and try not to complain about the situation you are in, all the while, you are screaming on the inside and holding back tears. How do you continue to be kind to others when you just want to lash out because you are so frustrated. How do you stay composed and not get jealous when you see others with food items you long to have, like a piece of fruit, or a container of yogurt. How to do you maintain a thankful heart when others tell you of the meals they made and you are eating a can of beans to stave off the hunger pains and a growling that your tummy is screaming out at you. How to do you rejoice for others when they get new clothes and yours have holes in them and are dry rotting. Even the few dollars that could be used at goodwill, could buy at least a dozen eggs.

    Choices, what choices, the best choices for the situation, what are they and how do you choose?

    While some people are getting ready for the end of the world as we know it, they are stocking up on food items, guns, and first aid items, we are just trying to survive the now.

    I know I am not alone in this!


    A test, a life test, a test of strength, a test of Hope, a test of Belief, a test of Trust?

    “The reality of your life can not always be shared with others” . 


    When I left work on Thursday, the moment I turned my car on, the battery light came on. All I could do was sit there for a few minutes and say “REALLY”??? “REALLY“? That light stayed on all the way home. Mind you it was just in the shop a week ago for an alternator just one of the car repairs. I called the repair shop on the way home, they said drop it off Friday and well take a look. I talked to a guy at work on Friday Morning about the light and he said It maybe a faulty alternator. 




    Well, the mechanic at the shop rechecked all things, the battery connection, the alternator, he wiggled and jiggled all wires. He test drove it over bumpy roads and on the highway and could not make the light come on.




    Grateful and thankful, but stressed that I had to deal with yet one more detail.


    It was Thursday evening, when I came home and saw my handicap neighbor sitting outside. I knew I had to go and talk with her. She held her arms out to me and said “You need a Hug’ ( she is not a hugger) and I need a hug, so we hugged. October is a rough month for her, her taxes are due on her property, and it leaves no wiggle room and her food supply was also low. She said her sister had sent her a few dollars, and that she had some unexpected other blessings, and I was so happy for her, yet, in my mind I quietly whispered up to heaven, “Lord where is Mine”?. My neighbor and I spoke a few more minutes and I walked across the street to my house. It was now later in the evening, and I was tired, worn out hungry. When I get in the house, I always look for mail, and on the coffee table, I saw an envelope that looked like a card envelope. So I went over to it and sure enough, it was a card from a friend who was and has been praying for me. She always hand makes her cards and I keep each one and date them. This one was exceptional. She hand wrote the following:


    Dear Leslie,

    Seems like the Lord is giving you more challenges lately, but it looks like you are passing everything. You know the Lord will not give you more than you can handle. We will be praying for you. Remember to take a big breath and trust the Lord.

    Your Friend.

    Enclosed in the card, all wrapped in love, was a check from a very generous heart. I cried at how God has used her in my life so many times before. A peace, that transcends all understanding, draped over me that evening. God had heard my many weeks of prayers, he saw my tears, heard my fears.

    We would have food again in the house, bills would get paid, and most of all, the anxiety that held me captive was gone. The knot in my stomach and shakiness I felt inside had lifted.

    “The reality of your life can not always be shared with others” .

    When we walk with the Lord , we have no idea what test, or tests He may set you up to go through. Look at Job, Joseph, David, Samson, Moses. But if we “BELIEVE” GOD can, HE WILL come through for you.


    Zechariah 13:9


    I will bring the one–third through the fire, will refine them as silver is refined, and test them as gold is tested. They will call on My name, And I will answer them.


    I will say, ‘This is My people’; And each one will say, ‘The Lord is my God.’” 


    The trials do not come to everyone at such great lengths, but trials come to all of us. It is how we handle the trials that bring us closer to God. In this world you will have trouble. 


    John 16:33


    Jesus answered them, “Do you finally believe? In fact, you’re about to make a run for it—saving your own skins and abandoning me. But I’m not abandoned. The Father is with me. I’ve told you all this so that trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I’ve conquered the world.”


    So where do you stand today?





    The Lord says to you today;




    Always My Love For You,



    October 5, 2014


















































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Lissy Verghese Amazing faith! Thank you for sharing your faith journey!
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